Over the past few years, I've undergone a very intentional journey of personal growth. I've being guided to a new city and a different job. I made the decision to step away from several life distractions that are considered socially acceptable (if not required). I've been reminded to be patient with situations and people when I most want to intervene and resolve. I've spent a lot (A LOT) of very vulnerable time learning about myself. I've consumed more books, lectures, and podcasts than I'd thought possible. As a result, I've become a more confident, resilient, bright, and happy version of myself.
The path here hasn't been easy. At 32, I've become hyper-aware that I'm on the road less traveled. While this path has ultimately proven to be extremely fulfilling in a very short time; I sometimes feel lonely, confused, misunderstood, and judged. I've struggled to articulate why I feel so certain that everything is unfolding as it should and that I'm exactly where I need to be. I've butted heads with others who are determined that life can't be as happy and aligned as I describe. In these moments, I ask for guidance and reassurance. This evening, the guidance came at the end of a long conference call as the host read an excerpt from Rebecca Campbell’s Light is the New Black. As she read it, my eyes filled with tears; it spoke to me deeply and articulated so clearly what I feel and believe. When I returned home, I pulled my own copy Light is the New Black off my shelf, opening to where my bookmark had been left some months ago...this passage was on the next page; just waiting to be read. I hope you read it and that it serves you as well:
I believe that you came into this life with a deep inner knowing of what you were here to do and an inner guidance system to make it happen.
I’m not talking a carefully laid out path which comes with an instruction manual, rather an unshakable deep seeded knowing that you’re here for a reason, there is serious work to do and the universe will support you in doing it.
I believe until you answer this calling you will always feel like there is something missing and something you have forgotten. No matter what you use to numb it out, it will be there. The only way to stop the calling is to answer it.
I believe that your message is so deeply engrained in you that sometimes it’s hard to realise that everyone doesn’t think like you. They don’t.
I believe you chose your parents. No matter how hard or soft, rich or poor, light or dark, old or young, present or not, kind or troubled – you chose them. And with this simple selection you were put in exactly the right place and given exactly what you need to inspire you to rise up, up into yourself. To take your position.
I believe that your tragedies, your losses, your sorrows, your hurt happened for you not to you. And I bless the thing that broke you down and cracked you open because the world needs you open.
I believe that life lessons are less about getting it right and more about getting it wrong.
I believe that you are more on track than you feel, even if you don’t feel it – especially if you don’t feel it. For the further you get off track, the closer you actually are to abandoning the wrong one and leaping over to the right one.
I believe that you are closer than you think and more qualified in your message than you could ever fathom.
I believe that the things that you are here to teach are the very things that you most need to learn, and that the best teachers are the ones that struggle the most because when they get it they get it with a triple smack down.
I believe that you are surrounded by your own personal team of angels, guides and teachers both in this world and beyond that are so completely devoted to your growth that if you knew, you would not spend one more day worrying about things working out. And if you could see things from their viewpoint… each time you’d see a challenge, you would meet it with a cheer.
I believe in you. And us. And all of this.
And so it is.